I love Cheap Trick and this song applies.... Let me preach on it:
As you may know, I've been in a real funk for awhile. I believe it's a result of a bunch of causes. Before I get too far into this, I want to dedicate this video to Momthatsnuts too. Mom, I know you have also been going through your own rough times, so I hope you enjoy the song.
So, I went to the gym tonight with my beautiful wife and climbed my fat butt on a treadmill. I was able to run on speed "#5" for 30 minutes without keeling over of a heart attack. When I got done with my workout, I sat at a table and waited my wife to finish her routine. While I sat there listening to my MP3 player I began to think about why I've been in such a rut lately. One reason is because I've let myself go and am now weighing 215. I eat like shit and have no one to blame but me. I am now going to start watching what I eat. I'll stop short of saying I'm on a diet, but rather I am going to try not to eat a bunch of fattening ass shit in huge portions. I will continue to do a gym routine of some sort 3-5 days a week.
Secondly, I have no gratitude for the things in my life. I bitch about this and that and criticize my wife and kids instead of enjoying and appreciating their company. My ego gets the best of me and I expect my family to be as good as I think they should be. I will do my best to try to be more appreciative of them and not yell so much at my kids. I said that when I retired, I was going to "chill out" more. That has yet to happen. Furthermore, I will try to connect more with my children. My concern here is that it may be a little late, but I'm still going to try.
Lastly, I've been stressing about my job. I cant seem to get any satisfaction from it and at the same time, I'm stressing because I've had 5 jobs since I left the Air Force. This teaching gig pays extremely well and I really love teaching. I think I need to chill the hell out and just enjoy the job instead of bitching about it. I am very fortunate to have a good paying job in these times. Once again, Paul needs to have some gratitude about having a well paying job.
The moment of clarity about all of this hit me tonight while I was sitting in the gym blaring Metallica. Who says metal music is bad???
I feel really good (and tired) after tonight's workout and new frame of mind. Stay tuned to see if I'm blowing smoke or this is the beginning of the climb out of a deeeeep rut...