I am a recovering alcoholic. My life is very fragile even after 6 yrs of sobriety. I don't bother people, and I don't want to be bothered. Just when I think I've seen it all, God sees fit to push me further. I wish he'd back off a little:
This evening at about 5:30 the doorbell rings and I'm in my usual position surfing the net. I don't get up because the door (or phone) is never for me. A few seconds go by and it rings again. My 12 year old opens the door and I hear an adult female voice telling my son to dial 911 because she just got home from work and found her husband down in the garage. We have a free standing fireplace that blocks the front door view from the middle of our living room, so when I hear this voice I jump up and walk to the door. It's the lady across the street and she is frantic.
My 12 yr old immediately gives me his cell phone as I ran out the front door to go see whats going on. My mind was racing a million miles an hour and as I approached the gentleman, the 911 operator comes on and I ask her to send an ambulance. He had no pulse and he wasn't breathing.
I began CPR and got through about 4 repetitions before the paramedics arrived and took over. It was a very different experience than the training I've received throughout my military career. I did not have a pocket mask and had to provide rescue breaths without any type of barrier. That part was the weirdest experience I've ever had.
Several neighbors just stood there and watched me without even asking to help. That pisses me off to no end. My senses were heightened so much that I heard every word that was spoken. It was like an out of body experience.
I'm sad to report that my neighbor didn't make it. My wife and I went to the hospital to check on him and we visited with his wife for a second. She said the docs told her that he had been down for quite awhile. I hope God helps her through her grief. My heart goes out to her and her family.
It's a couple of hours after the fact and now my body hurts and my head hurts. I did CPR on the concrete and my knee caps are screaming now. I feel like shit and I just want to sleep. I cant take this kind of stress in my life.